Flabbergasted

Chemistry's doomed. I screwed up to the extent that I can't even flunk the paper. If I gripe that SS was a hard knock, then Chemistry must be a hit-and-run case. The paper, needless to say, was way too easy. So simple was it that it can be complicated easily. I'm peeved at myself for not being able to do it good and do it well. Perhaps I underestimated things. Since this's the last test of CT1, I was expecting to pull off everything nicely and take my leave with a good performance. Do you know how much it prick to put in so much effort for one subject and walk off the exam room feeling as though you're the most nit-witted person on earth? I feel the heartache because I was gamed to do well for this subject. I really wanna pull the whole show off impressively and go home the happiest person. It's like I got rammed by a car 20 times and my pulse just keeps beating even though you want it to stop, like I've had enough of everything but the problem just stays stuck to me. O, and maybe I should add, it's comparable to you striking lottery but misplace the money before you deposit them into the bank. 1001 daily examples to quote from.

I nearly dozed off on the bus on the journey way home but thank goodness Ashiqin, Bryan and Hairul came up the bus and tapped me. Hahaha, I guess this's a result of me being bogged down by disappointment. But yes, from that moment they boarded the bus, it was as if I was lifted out of my trance. Because whenever I'm in low spirits, seeing a friend or two smile at me is the best thing I can ever get. Was supposed to go to the movies with Amelia, Cheryl, Melissa and Kelly but I'm grounded and even if I were to join them for the evening, I wouldn't be enjoying myself thoroughly because of Chemistry. Sorry friends I don't want to let anyone see me in such a sad sight. Let me get over this one last troubling time and I'll be alright and go out like what I always did with you guys. If you're asking me how in the hell do I know I'm gonna fare badly for Chem, I'd say I'm the one doing my paper and only I can gauge by how far by my standards I'm falling.

I never want people to see me in such a defeated and sad state. It's a vow.