Angels

I haven't felt like this in a while. Or should I say, for a long time to come? Yea, angry. I don't know if humans are just goddamn careless in what they say or do or whatsoever. But sometimes the slightest thing they do riles you up.

So again, I did the usual thing I will do when I'm hopping mad. Go to the bed, listen to some jazz and think over some issues. You know, when I'm feeling angry, I always try to avoid people. I don't want to talk to anybody and all I want to do is to be left alone. That's because inside my head, there are strings of vulgarities popping up so very often... I think I might just lash out at anyone I see. I try so very hard to convince myself that they are all lies and excuses, but I know they are not. It's the truth.

I went to lie on the bed, tell everyone I'm going to sleep so no one in the house could hell talk to me. That's just me, and I have always been like that. So if no one wants to get hurt by what I'm gonna say, the kindest thing I will say to anyone when I'm furious is, just get lost.

Happened to listen to this piece which I haven't heard in a long time...

"Life can show no mercy, it can tear your soul apart. It can make you feel like you're crazy but you're not..."

I need to go listen to Frank Sinatra to get my mind off things again.