vexed. i' m blogging on a sad-bittersweet basis. sad over what? i dont know. all i can do is to laugh. ever heard of the phrase,"to choke back your tears"? hey, i 'm choking down my sorrows. Cool eh? man, i wonder what exactly has got over me. theres no use venting my anger, or to make it sound more precise, sadness, on anything. nothing will help. lol. >.< <------this is to cheer me up! hahas.

what am i gonna do now, i dont know. all i know is that i dont know. i guess its better not knowing. some facts in life can really crush your world. i rather not have my mood-o-meter to turn to a "sad" level. anyway, i guess my mood now is neutral. below neutral by 5%? yea, i think so.

plan to go soccer-ing today, but i'm feeling lazy. and my cousin isnt up yet. no fun kicking that ball around. and hey angsiang, the toykar website regarding remote sailing and remote flying wont work.i've waited for some 20 minutes yet all i see is the homepage. never mind then. but is that sport so costly? man, i'll force my mum to get me either of them on Christmas!!!!!!!!! i'd prefer remote sailing though.