sighs. so they want me BACK in RED CROSS. goddammit. back to past's horrendous memories. fine with me then. i can do with anything except dance. thats a sure no-no for me. no doubts. thank god i'll be participating in the "Math Trail" at Peihwa Secondary tomorrow. that means an excuse for me to skip red cross practice. it definitely feels kinda awkward to go back when i have long forgotten that i was once a red cross cadet. the teacher picked me out during assembly this morning and brought me to meet the HOD-in-charge of CCA, PE, aesthetics. he sputtered SHIT. said he dont recall approving my request to switch to BAND. hes an old hag, LIAR. my friends were with me when he agreed to help me with the transfer. they could be my witness. but i guess it was of no use. he wont listen to even a bit of my story, he wont give up and it resulted in me giving in. i agreed to go back. these recent events are just part and parcel of my daily life. "part and parcel", i suppose i had written the wrong spelling. i cant seem to remember the phrase. they are taking a toll on me. sighsighsigh. then he asked me to move away while he whispered to the red cross teacher-in-charge. i stood about say, 0.5 metres away from them. thats roughly 50cm. quite a distance. then he turned rude. "move further away", he yelled. wtf. he muttered something with the teacher. naturally, one would have turned pissed with HIS ATTITUDE. he was clearly not respecting me. if he wants me to respect him, which was exactly what i did, he should respect us, students. so i accede to his request and this time, i move really FURTHER away. he and the teacher in charge couldnt find even a trace of me. but i made my appearance and guess what they told me?

this is the interesting part. open your ears, or to put it, your eyes. he said," i think you're going to be a leader. we will promote you."

as if i would fall for his trick. i dont care about promotion. what was taking more priority then was that he didnt keep his words. he promised to allow me to transfer now hes saying another frivolous thing. what talking him?? he bogus??? i dont want promotion. i want something that i will enjoy, one thats gonna be my passion. that i will contribute to willingly. i wont buy his treacherous offer. hes LURING me back. its not an appropriate thing or rather ethical thing to do. hes a teacher, he should inculcate the right values in students.

i know i sounded harsh. but then he should know his limits as a teacher.

but for the moment, i gonna heed his advice and not say a word about anything. if he wants me to go back, fine with me. after all, hes still the teacher and he calls the final shots.

thats all. BYES...

`sad.