What's with the weather these days? If this kind of sultry weather continues to persist, I guess I'll melt in time to come. Every part of me now feels like it has been broiled.

Somehow, I've made an interesting observation today. I found that the sweltering weather often brings about problems. And what I truly need now is a long nap. Or should I call it sleep.

I think I have a problem with problems. I mean, what the hell, sometimes I really can't be in two or three places at the same time working my ass off. I have to tend to other commitments and businesses elsewhere. So I don't really like it when I have my day's schedule packed and hectic with all the programmes clashing with each other. It kind of sucks. You'd feel that way when someone rings you up and tells you to make your way to some place but coincidentally you are having another important meeting just then. Everything tops my priority list. And I won't ever leave anything that I have a passion or devotion for behind. What people really need to understand is the fact that they can't possibly ask you to attend to something when you're already away doing something important. Yes, you can say I'm not being a true blue to something. But no, it's just the problem with my time. Time management you may say, but I just can't wear too many hats at the same time. I don't like juggling with too many tasks. So all I can offer anyone back then was just an apology. Back to my priority list. Perhaps I should again reiterate that nothing and no one gets left and neglected behind as long as I'm involved in whatever thing. I mean those things that have captured my interests, that is.

Usual gripes I guess.

Anyway, woke up early in the morning to read the papers and book before heading off for extra math classes in the late morning. I came to the school pretty early today. Thought I would report around the allocated time but alas, no. Haha. Math was the usual but was kinda great these three days. Well, you can say so.

Chewed on gum towards the end of class and had teacher baulking at that. Hahahaha. I don't like gums but since cheryl offered me one, I 'have no choice' but to oblige. (= I know I'm being kind.

Headed off home immediately after school cuz I really feel lethargic all over. I haven't eaten lunch and my stomach is really growling.

Hungry. Hungry.

Hi Earthlings!

Today was kinda cool cuz Sis and I went over to VivoCity to shop for her outfit for her dinner and dance night. hahahah. It has been such a long time since I really headed out to anywhere with either of my siblings. So this trip served a good purpose and allowed me to catch up a bit on her life.

And I bought the Anpanman popobe toy bear miniature which stands at about 15cm for $12.90! LOL. I should have spent my money more sensibly but you know, I just want the Anpanman popobe! Okay, so my next aim is to acquire the 50cm (approximate) Spiderman popobe bear which costs $49.90. I'll try to increase my budget to $250 for the largest version of the popobe bear which is like around 70cm tall. hehee. Sis says the house will one day be converted into a toyland for the popobe bear miniature which takes up a huge amount of space in the house.... but i beg to differ. who knows popobe bear might one day be a collector's item and a great investment?

Lunch was at The Chicken Rice Shop. We chalked up quite a hefty bill cuz the chicken rice, which was like something from a hawker fare, costs $10 per person for a set. Wasn't really what I'd expected from a chicken rice restaurant. But I think it was kinda worth it cuz it got our stomachs congested. Sis then went on rambling about my choice of restuarant. blah.

Lastly, sis bought her eyeshadow at M.A.C and that's that.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my popobe bear collections, & Anpanman! heheeee.

For some reasons, this lyrics just kind of resounds in my head. And yes, it's been so long since...

konayuki, mau kisetsu wa
itsumo surechigai
hitogomi ni magiretemo
onaji sora miteru no ni

powdered-snow, within the revolving seasons
we always miss each other [1]
although we got separated within the crowd,
we look into the same sky

kaze ni fukaretenita you
ni kogoeru no ni

blown in the wind,
we feel the same chills

boku wa kimi no
subete nadoshitte wa inai darou
soredemo ichiokunin
karakimi wo mitsuketa yo

everything about you, [2]
guess I don’t really know
even so, from one hundred million
I still found you [3]

konkyo wa nai kedo
honki de omotterun da

although i’m not really sure, [4]
i’m seriously thinking about it

sasai na iiai mo nakute wararai, wararai
onaji jikan wo ikite nado ikenai
sunao ni narenai nara
yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

if slight quarrels may lose our laughters
then we must not live in the same moment of time
if we can’t be honest to each other [5]
happiness and sadness are just empty

konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
futari no kodoku wo wake au koto ga dekita no kai

powdered-snow, until our hearts become white-dyed
let us meet so that we can share our loneliness

boku wa kimi no kokoro ni, mimi wo oshiatete
sono koe no suru hou e sutto fukaku made
orite yukitai, soko de mou ichido aou

i want to put my ears into your heart
to hear the voice that gently leads into the depth
i want to go descend, and let us meet once again there

wakariaitai nante morarai, morarai
uwabe wo nadete ita no wa boku no hou
kimi no kajikanda te mo
nigirishimeru koto dake de tsunagatteta no ni

although I say that I want to understand,
but I can only stroke the surface of my words
even your hands that have become cold,
only by holding them tightly, we were connected

konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
zaratsuku ASUFARUTO no ue shimi ni natte yuku yo [6]

powdered-snow, even too fragile before the eternity
fell and became stain upon the rough asphalt

konayuki nee toki ni tayorinaku kokoro wa yureru
soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamoritsudzuketai…

powdered-snow, in such time unreliable, shaking my heart
even so, I want to keep on protecting you…

konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
futari no kodoku wo tsutsume sora ni kaesu kara…

powdered-snow, until our hearts become white-dyed
wrap up our loneliness, return it to the sky…

Jazz - Russell Watson

[Russell Watson and Faye Tozer]

Il tempo passa senza che
Lo passo mai insieme ate
Ma ti pensavo sempre
Nei sogni tu con me
Per me il mondo finira
Se non ci fossi tu
Ovunque vai
Voglio che sai

If you need a friend or a lover
Or a place that you can hide
I will always be there
Even though my hands are tied
I know deep down inside
If you'd consider what we shared
Maybe you'll see
You're all that I need

E'una vita che cercando a te
E non importa che io senta per te
Soltanto una notte ancor
Chiamami amor

All my life
I'm been searching
For someone like you

There's never been a better time
There's never been a better place
For you and I together here
Alone and face to face
Oh I'd do anything
If you'd just let me in your life
Whatever it takes
I won't make the same mistake again

E'una vita che cercando a te
E non importa che io senta per te
Soltanto una notte ancor
Chiamami amor

All my life
I'm been searching
For someone like you

Could it be the brightest star
So close yet still far away
Don't you know I've fallen for you
Baby I'm calling for you
Right here right now

E'una vita che cercando a te
E non importa che io senta per te
Soltanto una notte ancor
Chiamami amor

All my life
I'm been searching
For someone like you

Hmm, sexy lyrics and vocal they have. =)

This fucking thing always happens, doesn't it? Had I known this would be detrimental to my everything, then I should have fucked off earlier.

should have fucked off earlier. fuck it.

I feel like eating microwaved pasta. Maybe I'll have spaghetti for lunch. Heehee, or dinner.

I might be going to the movies later but I haven't yet made any appointment with anyone. come to think of it, that's kinda easy. Just gotta ring up someone whom i think will be the perfect movie partner and get them or him or her to drag their or his or her ass or asses to the cinema.

On the other hand, all I wanna do today is stay at home and read my Spiderman novel, listen to some songs or simply while my time away watching anime. But something's telling to not to do such meaningless stuff like watching anime.

Now back to the movie talk. If nobody happens to come across my mind as my choice for the candidancy of a great movie-goer, then I MIGHT go alone. I say I MIGHT. Sounds so pathetic. But I haven't tried such an antic thing before. Perhaps to amuse myself, I'll try. I know I'll feel like a dumbass munching and chewing on the popcorns in the cinema hall alone. But so long as I get to watch my show, why in the world do I care whether I need a companion to sit me through the whole show?

Maybe it's just plain talk, maybe I'll really head down to town and try this out. Hahahahaha. I'm halfway through D.A.Q... so that means I paused to the show just to spend a few minutes blogging away. What the heck is this? Looks like I gonna stop here.

what is this? ^^

Sleep proves to be the only counteractant for all sort of stuff these days. At least, it helps me to thwart away from everything. Funny. I fall asleep once my head hit the pillow and I won't deny that sometimes I don't really feel like waking up. Puts me in a comatose state temporarily.

Anyway, I wouldn't have sleeping ideas if not for some busy events.

It just occurs to me these days that I find anyone who comes up telling me about this and that a nuisance. Funny thing number two. I easily get high strung at times. I don't know why. Hahaha. Perhaps it is just me not wanting to listen to whatever crap anymore. not crap, but it is just me. i have only me to blame since i think the world is full of crap. =D

The upcoming holidays wouldn't be of any fun either. I think it's gonna suck. oh, and yes, 29 may and 30 may seem to be lucky days for the rest of the world. firstly, there is the math olympiad, math extra classes and the podcast thingy.

such luck. no wonder all i wanna do these days is to sleep and cycle and shut out the rest of the world.

i'm at episode 14 of detective academy and going on to episode 15. i think i have gotten amelia hooked on D.A. cheryl is watching it too and kelly doesn't like it. i think angsiang might watch it since i overheard cheryl chan telling angsiang about it in the IT lab today.

spiderman 3 is exceptionally nice. i wish i had more time for it. XD

sometimes i wish i could go faster.

i missed it, sad to say. but lets just not care.

Gareth Gates - Anyone of Us (stupid mistake)

I've been letting you down, down
Girl I know I've been such a fool
Giving in to temptation
I should've played it cool
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

Chorus
It can happen to
Anyone of us, anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break'
Cause I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to
Anyone of us, say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can't take my heart will break
'Cause I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake

She was kind of exciting
A little crazy I should've known
She must have altered my senses
'Cause I offered to walk her home
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

Chorus

A stupid mistake
she means nothing to me(nothing to me)
I swear every word is true
don't wanna lose you

The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

Chorus to fade

_special thanks to lennard the cow. =D

I'm down to 100+ more pages for 'The Fallen'. Looking at the situation I'm in, this means I gotta finish reading by tomorrow afternoon before the market value for the book dips in 4 days' time.

After this, I gonna start on the Spiderman 3 novel and a few more books. Lastly, my anime chase.

Exam fever is over and that means no more cramming. Happy thing number 1.

So as usual, headed to school early in the morning for math and art paper. Somehow or rather, I thought the math paper kind of had a bit of "standard" yet it doesn't meet the benchmark or is anywhere near touching the "difficult" line. It wasn't easy nor too brain draining(some were). Just 30-40% above mediocre though i can't guarantee anything. Haha.

Amelia, Melissa and me then went over to hougang mall for lunch before Amelia and I went to chill over at the Esplanade. Kinda cool, I would say. What ruins the atmosphere was the construction works which were making too much of a din and dirt behind the Esplanade. Chewed on junk foodies which we bought over at a shop in the Esplanade. Cost 50% more than what the normal market price offers. It is no wonder that there were hardly any patronizers. boo.

Oh yea, and before this, both of us unknowingly boarded the correct line but alighted at the wrong station which landed us both in MARINA BAY! woohoo, M.B was kind of heaven-like. Highways all around, cargoes, and parks after parks. No youths, just empty and lonesome long stretches of road that seem to lead to nowhere. Hang out over there for around 5 minutes before we boarded the train to City Hall station.

After the Esplanade, Amelia wanted to go to the MERLION PARK which comprises of 2 merlion statues. what started out as a casual and informal visit to the Merlion Park soon proved to be a real eye-opener. Man, you should have seen how people posed in front of the Merlion. Makes me wanna laugh right now. But I guess that just shows how symbolic and high the popularity rate of the merlion is. hmm. National icon indeed.

Final destination was MARINE SQUARE where we simply just wandered our souls away and walked aimlessly around.

=D

I'm done for

Howdy.

Science and math paper today. I mean god damn it, god damn it god damn it. I couldn't finish the science paper in time and left many many questions blank. Anyway, the MYE has been quite through with me this time. I left many blanks for many papers anyway.

Made many careless mistakes in the math exam and jolly well feel like killing myself. lol. And yea, one more thing about science that got me damn fired up is the fact that I didnt complete the higher order thinking questions on both papers. >.< section c for bio paper had only a few answers. (it is almost as good as not doing)

Midway through the paper has many blanks too and i feel like strangling someone or something but i dont know who.

So reached home, had lunch, read the news before taking an afternoon nap to comfort my soul. I couldn't sleep well for the past few days so I guess the nap really did me good. I slept as hard as I can, like I have never slept before and cussed the whole world behind my ass.

i gotta go now. i can't wait for the weekends to come.

someone's boring me. i think it's me.

Early morning and there's a cloudburst right now. Yawns. But yea, it is a pretty morning.

My brother told me last night while I was studying that he's gonna get a new iPod Nano today. Dammit, I'm frigging envious. I asked for him to get me a Nano and he has to fork out the full costs for me cuz i'm kind of impecunious these days.

He says yes but I'll have to foot the tab myself. and it's gonna cost me a lot, i know. But i have already used up all the space in my current mp3 and seriously need a new one with a larger space. so i'll go get the money for him later.

so now both my brother and i have the same combination of gadgets. we have the same cellphone model and now we gonna get an identical mp3. sounds kinda stupid and yet cool to me.

Thanks so much to him now that i'll be having holes in my pocket. after all, he is always lamenting that i am always getting the same stuff as him.

i'm 14 years 2 months and 7 days old and getting lamer by the day.

Not forgetting, Happy Mothers' Day to all mummies in this world! I've already wished my mum early at 6+ am today! i wanted to get her some roses yesterday but ended up going home early after school to read the newspapers and study. guess i gotta go buy something or treat her to some meals later.

off to do some reading, byes.