As abrupt as I arrived for the meeting, I departed in the same manner. That's right, I left, as a matter-of-fact, midway through. My sudden departure must have helped risen the blood pressure of the rest of my mates. It startled me as well. I went off with a cloud of uncertainty looming inside me. Ill-mannered, disrespectful, brash, curt, irreponsible. Go ahead and throw all the words at me. I do deserve it, thats how I feel. When I got away in a huff, I was actually wondering what the heck I have done. The problem surely doesn't lie with my confidence or self-esteem. I'm not sure what it is. Cuz my confidence level hangs in the mid-range category. Frankly speaking, I wasn't a kid who can impress upon anyone when I was young. But as I grow older, I slowly begun to erect in me a castle confidence. Enough to tide me through now and the rest of my life. So the battle with confidence is over many many years back. Which means the real bugbear is my attitude which includes temper. Not that I see no wrong in what I did but given a second chance I would still have stormed off. With my last sentence being,'Next Meeting'. - which simply means see you all next time, it seems to mirror the image of someone who blatantly defies everyone's orders. Everytime I go for such meetings I told myself that I would do better today, improve on myself and all. But the resultant product is always the same as before, damn, I want to arrest the problem as soon as possible but how to when I fucking don't understand where I went wrong. I'm so stuck-up at such times that I don't even feel like making some small talk with anyone at all. Perhaps thats the real problem : stuck-up.

There are ample chances for me to prove to myself that I have changed but I always fail to cherish them, to tell the world that I'm constantly making invisible efforts which they don't happen to see. But I'm forever trying and not reaching my goal. Why can't everyone see that I'm putting every effort to change?

Hey, somehow I feel so much better right now, it has been nearly 2 hours since. Hahahaha. Anyway, I'm just glad none of my friends were present where I was today. It's just a passing surge of frustration. But no, I'm not gonna prove myself to the same people again. No way.

Byes.

Today was lunch with Mum, bro, and my cousin at a restaurant opposite NAFA. Bro was the one who recommended lunch over there. The cuisine (chinese) served was well, how do I put it, simply agreeable to our taste buds. One minute we were walking about, lamenting about how tired we were and the next we found ourselves totally energised and ready to head off to the next destination. So basically we doodled our time around the CBD area. Somewhere between Clarke Quay, Boat Quay and City Hall. The main show for the day was the hunt for my new camera. An arduous mission because we jumped from place to place in order to find the best rates and of course my desired model. On our to-shop places list were Harvey Norman (Central Mall), Audio House and Funan IT Mall.

And guess what, I did not carry home a z10-fd, instead it was a z5-fd purchased from Funan South Asia Computer. Total receipt amounted to some $328including a 2GB SD card. All thanks to my brother who does not mind the hassle of combing so many malls just to ensure I get a quality product. =DDD Firstly the z5-fd produced a sharper image quality with the bonus of having to pool out lesser money. z10-fd priced at $399 but pictures quality was a far contrast from the former, a complete let-down from what I had expected. We took note of this cuz over at Audio House, a lady sales assistant told us to do a comparison between the two and at our stop over at Funan, it was revealed to us that z10 fetched a higher price tag cuz it was a novel product. So z5-fd it was then. A picture adapted from the net to give you an idea how my camera looks like. One more thing to add, it's a brown colour one. Not light pink nor hot pink cuz my brother says it would make the camera look like some toy.




Byes.
-Thanks Mum, Bro and Cousin-

Mum and Dad have given me to go-ahead to get a new digital camera. =D That comes at an opportune period and as a tremendous surprise. I did not expect them to consent so readily. I merely fabricated a few lame reasons (sound enough to convince them though, can't say it's entirely baseless after all. ;p) such as needing it for grand occasions like the upcoming Christmas and sending my brother off for his NS stint. Two solid reasons is all that I need. Of course a normal person would definitely have braced themselves up for the thick nagging work as would thought to have come from mums and dads. It's like someone ushered away the grey clouds and invite in the white ones that such a miraculous thing happened. Anyway, enough of this, should give you guys a preview of the camera model I have set my sights on.

Wait a minute...
Hold your breath...
Don't exclaim please...

Now, now, the moment everyone's been waiting for!

Tah-Dah!

Featuring the Fujifilm Z10-fd!



And here's an assortment of other vibrant colours.


Pink


Orange


Blue


Green

Also available are colours like red. I'm at a loss to decide which colour to choose. Haha. All seems great to me. But I might make a switch in camera model. Do drop me some comments on which colour or other model designs to settle on.

Byes.

"You are what You do."

I've given much thought to what Mum has told me tonight. Guess she has a point there. Action gives rise to self. As in it helps in carving your character and personality.

I'm feeling slightly uncomfortable right now. Breathing's heavily irregular and sluggish. A marked similarity to the time when I suffered an asthma attack or relapse when I was young. No, I'm not succumbing in this battle to the illness anytime soon. I've never stated having a history of asthma from 8 or 9 years old since nothing fatal happens. But somehow, I just am unwell.

My head hurts a lot, a lot. Ergh. Fight this pain!

Hi all. Did a little bit of reading this morning before revising my first aid skills. Yes, you hear it right. I'm actually practising and going through all over the course again. There's this yearning of wanting to further broaden my FA knowledge principally because of its many utilities that in the future, as I foresee, can be harnessed to provide assistance to those who need it out there. But before you get the idea that I'm finally feeling attached to red cross sorta stuff and marvel at me, I'll say, no, the spark is still not in me.(at least, it's slightly better than before, when I was in sec 1) I just want to be useful when someone meets an emergency/crises. That is one of the main goals I wanna achieve. My SFA licence expires on 2010. A validity date of 3 years. I have given thoughts about renewing the licence after I graduate from school or something. Yea, I guess that's the thing about learning. Either you put it to use or let it corrode. But fortunately for me, I'm not about to let my first aid skills degenerate - my one survival skill that I'm proud of. ;p

Learning is a process that needs meticulous husbanding. Grow it or let it wither.

Chill!!!

By the time most of you have read this, I would have been long gone. Left, hmmm. Seems like the downpour's kinda heavy. Lets just hope the turnouot wouldn't be affected. Anyway, since the class gathering's on Monday, here's my well-wishing and shoutout to yall all : HAVE FUN HAVE FUN HAVE FUN! I'll be trying to enjoy myself on that day too, on that damn island. xD

Byes.

Hey guys I'm back, yet again! I'll be camping over at Pulau Ubin for the next 4 days. Urgh. I've already cleared about half of my packing list. A little bit more work to go. I'm having second thoughts about bringing my moisturizer and facial foam along. I might be getting a new tube of sunscreen later on. MAYBE. After all, I'm not one to apply sunblock lotion and those stuff during camp.(blame it on laziness) HAHAHA. But considering the venue being Pulua Ubin, I thought it wiser to have it as stated in the list. And I guess I'll have to be open to new social experiences as of tomorrow cuz there's NO ONE, NOT A SINGLE SOUL whom I'm acquainted with, going to the camp. Goddamn, surviving 2 days and 1 night ALONE is already a pretty lonesome way during camps, what more 4 days and 3 nights? No choice other than to meet strangers and make new friends then. "Ah, don't worry, I'll be able to get most of their numbers by mid-day." God wonders whether this strategy I used during the Sec 1 orientation with Cheryl and Melissa still works. We were barely having a conversation of less than 5 sentences and I was already asking them for their numbers. ROFL. Never mind, I'll take an entire different approach tomorrow. Haven't got no ideas as of now. Advices are warmly welcomed.

Lastly, maybe a new song to keep everyone occupied and happy during the time I'm away. A short post before dawn tomorrow before I head for Ubin. And I'll be away for one week! The 4 days and 3 nights camp precedes another 3 days 2 nights one. Yes, consecutively.

Byes.

I was interjected through my reading this morning by this anonymous call. And guess who is at the other end of the line? It sounds like a pre-recorded version of a person's voice. The accent that came through was a bit Chinese. I couldn't really make out the words cuz the slang was way too strong for me to correctly construe what the heck the lady was talking about. Ah yes, it was a lady's voice. Anyway, I slammed the phone back into the cradle almost immediately. I wanted to leave the lady with a 'Are you derailed?' remark before hanging the line. But I thought that would be rather incourteous. And who knows who the heck is on the other end? Might turn out that mum hires a spy to check on me. Haha. ;p Okay, I'm going a bit off-course here so, Full Stop.


Damn the world. Why are adults always retracting back on their words? What's the point of enlightening us with hopes and promises only to go back to square one afterwards and leaving us feeling dejected? On hindsight, perhaps I ought to know, ought to understand, earlier. That this world is not just words and promises. To be inordinately furious is unlike me, but I'm totally devastated. Perhaps One day I'll understand.

Byes.