Flabbergasted

Chemistry's doomed. I screwed up to the extent that I can't even flunk the paper. If I gripe that SS was a hard knock, then Chemistry must be a hit-and-run case. The paper, needless to say, was way too easy. So simple was it that it can be complicated easily. I'm peeved at myself for not being able to do it good and do it well. Perhaps I underestimated things. Since this's the last test of CT1, I was expecting to pull off everything nicely and take my leave with a good performance. Do you know how much it prick to put in so much effort for one subject and walk off the exam room feeling as though you're the most nit-witted person on earth? I feel the heartache because I was gamed to do well for this subject. I really wanna pull the whole show off impressively and go home the happiest person. It's like I got rammed by a car 20 times and my pulse just keeps beating even though you want it to stop, like I've had enough of everything but the problem just stays stuck to me. O, and maybe I should add, it's comparable to you striking lottery but misplace the money before you deposit them into the bank. 1001 daily examples to quote from.

I nearly dozed off on the bus on the journey way home but thank goodness Ashiqin, Bryan and Hairul came up the bus and tapped me. Hahaha, I guess this's a result of me being bogged down by disappointment. But yes, from that moment they boarded the bus, it was as if I was lifted out of my trance. Because whenever I'm in low spirits, seeing a friend or two smile at me is the best thing I can ever get. Was supposed to go to the movies with Amelia, Cheryl, Melissa and Kelly but I'm grounded and even if I were to join them for the evening, I wouldn't be enjoying myself thoroughly because of Chemistry. Sorry friends I don't want to let anyone see me in such a sad sight. Let me get over this one last troubling time and I'll be alright and go out like what I always did with you guys. If you're asking me how in the hell do I know I'm gonna fare badly for Chem, I'd say I'm the one doing my paper and only I can gauge by how far by my standards I'm falling.

I never want people to see me in such a defeated and sad state. It's a vow.

1 year older

I'm fifteen, 15. And this year is an especially soggy celebration because I'm barred from eating anything. Which makes it just another ordinary day. Unless you're referring to my cell which has been flooded since early morning. Apart from that, it's just 24 February.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Thanks for bombarding my phone with messages mates. That will make up for the many presents I used to receive.

I'm not worthy

Received hellava messages with regards to tomorrow SS test. Sorry guys if my replies came late. I didn't bother to check my mobile since it's in the silent mode. I hope what I've told you all works out well because... it's also the first time I'm sitting for the SS test. Ok, we shall not let that be an excuse that impedes us from getting our A1s. My apologies if I'm not of any help. I'd suggest you go look for some history students or whichever teacher some other time.

Had yusheng for supper the previous night. Man, I didn't expect it to be so scrumptious. It looks yucky with those long threads of noodle-like stuff but when you actually jumble everything together, it's nothing but rojak. So my bro came back for the weekend break from his BMT training and informed us about his being selected into the commanders' or MP division. Judging from what he says, he's sandwiched between his choices because he keeps asking me which one he should go for. He thinks the training for commanders is pretty tough but after you successfully endured the whole grooming sessions, well, you're all ready to personally train the BMT freshmen. That's his problem anyway so shan't talk so much about it. I'm not being irresponsible I hope. rofl. ;D

To the rounds of revision : here I come. ^^

Gone

Disappointed.

Tsk, was thinking about what a piece of shit I've submitted as essay today. Definitely one of my lousiest judging from what I did in the past. But one consoling thing is, I've written worse. So you wanna know what was the first thing I did right after I got home? Sleep. That's right. I've always been like that after taking a paper. Especially so if I've got a gut feeling that keeps biting me in the mind telling me that I'm finished. At least sleeping helps refrain me from brooding over the problems temporarily. My nerves problem came up again during the test. Heckkkkk. Of all times why must it be now?! I just dont kinda understand why exams are so different from tests. It's always popping up during such unwelcomed times. Ergh.

Byes. ~ DDDD=

Water Buffalo Day!

Ha, I'm sitting here because I've finished my maths. Yes, 3.45am. Anyway, I was doing my Maths homework around 8 in the night when this sleepiness slowly seeped into my system and eventually I found myself asleep on my bro's desk before waking at 2+ am. My body system simply just shut itself out. Forgivable since yesterday was an enormously draining day. Parade rehearsal was fabulous yesterday. So much more fun than the past 2 trainings. Water parade was demanding yesteday. Ya know why? Because I drank up a whole 2-litre of water at one go. I ended up helping my squadmates finish up their drink. Haha. And I told them that should this happen again next time, a charge will be imposed for every drop of water I take. The new instructor was all laughs anyway. He sure knows how to tickle the bones of everyone. Especially when he marches and when he first gave the commands. My friends and I were trying our best to make out his words given his, can I say awkward accent? But we gradually grew used to the way he speaks and things were easier. I must say Friday is the day of the week I'm looking forward to in school these days. Going around and crapping with other UG friends, heading home with them and nothing but plainly conversations about many meaningful stuff. Just talking to them puts you at ease, comfort. It just feels like you can tell the world to them and no restriction line is drawn.

And with this week being such a bumpy one, capping it off with a nice end makes all my troubles go away.

So stayed back on school on Thursday with Sage, Alex and Angsiang and talked a lot about school life. Was pretty good but a little disppointed with some crap stuff. Ah, never mind, let bygones be bygones. There's nothing that deserve our pity right now. Feels so much better after talking to those whom you are so close to. I'll feel worse and more sorry if I'm not responsible for the things you've done.

Should make my way off on a happier tune. Lennard inquired about the procedures for CPR and tried performing it on Marven with such affection. ROFL! Hello brother, remember feel for pulse/listen for breath, otherwise, 2 blows on the mouth and 30 slaps on the chest. LOL!