Angels

I haven't felt like this in a while. Or should I say, for a long time to come? Yea, angry. I don't know if humans are just goddamn careless in what they say or do or whatsoever. But sometimes the slightest thing they do riles you up.

So again, I did the usual thing I will do when I'm hopping mad. Go to the bed, listen to some jazz and think over some issues. You know, when I'm feeling angry, I always try to avoid people. I don't want to talk to anybody and all I want to do is to be left alone. That's because inside my head, there are strings of vulgarities popping up so very often... I think I might just lash out at anyone I see. I try so very hard to convince myself that they are all lies and excuses, but I know they are not. It's the truth.

I went to lie on the bed, tell everyone I'm going to sleep so no one in the house could hell talk to me. That's just me, and I have always been like that. So if no one wants to get hurt by what I'm gonna say, the kindest thing I will say to anyone when I'm furious is, just get lost.

Happened to listen to this piece which I haven't heard in a long time...

"Life can show no mercy, it can tear your soul apart. It can make you feel like you're crazy but you're not..."

I need to go listen to Frank Sinatra to get my mind off things again.

The X Factor show 2009: Featuring MB

My all-time favourite. No other song beats this.

Polar Needs a Hug

I saw something intriguing that I can't resist sharing it with you all! You simply got to see the pictures!

Nobert Rosing's striking images of a wild polar bear coming upon tender sled dogs in the wilds of Canada's Hudson Bay.

Seems like the Bear's gonna eat the dogs up!

"Hello! Good boy!"

Cuddling...

Aww, a hug.

Playing!

Heartwarming. Imagine a wild and gigantic animal like the Polar (an animal which is ever so fierce and often preys on other animals) asking for merely a hug from the sled dog to keep himself cosy? Very humane. I like it. (:

These little things that happen round the world everyday, well, I guess that's what makes living a worthwhile thing. There are simply so many beautiful things on earth that deserve our attention. Then again, it's a pity. Life's always so fast-pace, we can't even pause for a second and take a look at the mesmerizing happenings around us and transport us to a wonderful world.

Body Language

Over.

Today marks the last day that we are gonna be sitting for O level. Relief, yes. Excitement? Not really. I'm really looking forward to the many things that await me. Firstly, my schedule's almost fully packed next week. Yes, you guess it right. Camp.

I'll be away from home for all the weekdays next week but I guess I will just return to school in the evening whatsoever. The afternoons will be spent tutoring my cousins, and maybe some activities that'd allow me to crack my brain a little. Apart from that, I'm planning to go kite-flying and biking, my childhood pastimes. Need some quiet space because I want to be alone for a while.

Also, I'm gonna buy a Timbuk2 bag, and perhaps a pair of Lacoste shoes? Material needs, haha. Looking forward to family vacation too!

And just like what you said 2 years back, I'll be sleeping under the skies, because I want to enjoy the beauty of the night. Yea, that's what I'm gonna do.

All of Me

How's O level? I think it was fine, but I worry for E Maths paper, a lot. I do make a number of mistakes which are unforgivable. But then again, that was so long ago. Thank god I managed to get over my grief and channel my energies on the other papers. If anyone of you feels disappointed about your performance and think you've let your parents, friends and teachers down, think again. There's really no need to be sorry for what you have done. If you do well, give yourself a pat on the back. If you don't, say sorry, but only to yourself. That thought just dawned upon me a few days ago. I mean, really, the people around you don't want you to be apologizing to them, etc. I think the only one who deserves to swallow the bitter pill is us, ourselves. So, lighten up and tell youself it's ok, there's no point crying over spilled milk.

For me, things have been quite good because my bro has been around in the house recuperatuing after he got into a car crash. He would never fail to come up to me and tell me jokes and we'd scold each other for being dumb and stupid when we do not know to answer to some questions. That makes learning all the more enjoyable and fun. Anyway, bro promised to drive me out after O level, perhaps to somewhere fun? Right now, I really have the urge to hit the arcades and play daytona. Haven't entered the arcade for millions of years, wait, I think just 2 years. HAHAHA. My brain's been working ever since I entered Sec 1. As far as I remember, I don't think there's a day when my mind has drifted away from the urge to work or think about study matters. LOL. So most likely, I'd be stocking up on some reading materials to read after O level to keep my brain cells occupied. I feel uncomfortable sitting down there and doing unproductive things even for just 1 hour, really.

I'm now left with Higher Chinese and MCQ papers for Physics and Chemistry. All the best to me, and you guys too. Will be flying abroad after the O level, not sure where. HAHAH.

This song just about tells how I feel right now