special thanks to raist for making today as wonderful and memorable as possible.

anyway, we headed over to beach road to lunch after school today. raist treated us to a dish called "chilli mee" and drinks. after the meal, we kind of walked or walking-shop around the army market. i was pretty impressed by the stuff they sell over there. there were the boots, those shoes and bag, etc. the shop i was really awed by was the shop that sells the models of the guns, pistol and rifles or whatever. a small model of the pistol or so i think, costs at least $20. and for the bigger version it was $30, an additional of $10. the army market really stocks some good bargains and buys over there.

following which we walked all the way to bugis. on the way, we saw a "hot air balloon" ride. i was game for a go at it if it costs somewhere around $8-$10.

so we went to check out the rates. and here are the ticketing prices
adult : $23
children : somewhere around $10-13+
toddler : forgot

4 of us. that would have cost a burning $92. we then continued with our journey to bugis junction. when we arrived, headed to the third floor and went into the Emergency Exit beside Kinokuniya. we intended to go somewhere "beautiful". as quoted from raist. sadly the door up the rooftop was locked. but we were not despair. raist was smart enough to suggest another entry that will lead us there.

went into seiyu departmental store. this time round we went up through a door that reads,"No Entry". but then raist told us not to fear and just go in as per normal. up and up we climbed, and yea, lady luck was not with us at that time. the door was again locked. as we climbed down the flight of stairs to get out of the Emergency Exit, the staff, a woman, happened to come out of the door on the left side. or to put it in a more sarcastic manner, purposely came banging right out of the door.

"what're you all doing over here?!"

that woman was practically insane and was not in the right of mind. you should have seen her facial expressions. "you are not allowed to come in here!" she added.

raist brushed her aside and we got away from her "lecture".

and yea, raist, thanks for letting us experience such a "harsh" scolding. hahas.

my 86% cocoa chocolates. damn. my aunt just threw it away cuz she said its too bitter. double damn. my brother says its so not nice. lols. so little yet so expensive and they just threw it away after 3 bites!!! i only ate 3 TINY bits of it!

pitiful chos. gimme back my 86% COCOA CHOS!

"why're you so dumb?"

this line. yes. thats what my sis said to me the moment i stepped into my house.

since young, she has always been my guardian angel. the one who provides advice and lends me a shoulder to lean on in times of need. really in need. partly because i'm always the easy target, the one who gives in to others easily. but then i dont say a word and just resigned. i couldnt fight back, i wouldnt argue, i just let life have its way. but then again,she was always there to pick me up. encouraging me to go on, to gain more experience and the "taste of life". as the years come and go, i'm finally 13 this year. its high time i should venture out of this world full of complexity, complications and rejection. yet throughout my lifetime i still hadnt gained any experience, what more the taste of life. i still need her to be by my side. to guide me through the long journey, to share my joys and most importantly, to hear me pour out my sorrows. i still remember that whenever troubles come finding me and she wasnt there, i was like a little child. no weapons, no skills, no nothing. i was so vulnerable that i could die anytime if anyone just shoots me with a gun. and what i would do when she wasnt with me when i need her is that i would just go into the shower and let the water run down while i broke down and cry. i used to do that. i still do so now, once in a while. and today, i did it again. she always told me to take my own stand and not relent easily. once she told me,"you just have to live by your own principle."

i figure that instead of me controlling my life, my life is controlling me. i cant seem to change anything. worst, i have a principle, but i dont really know how to "live by it". true. i'm dumb. thats why i need her. i cant afford losing my sis. i dont even mind if she controls my life. but i mind if others do so. i always take life the hard way. i know someday, i would really need to "grow up" and lead my own life.

and today she told me,"its better to lose it now than later since you know you gonna lose it eventually."

yes, i guess its time for me to lose it. i shouldnt be so dumb to hold on to it anymore.

so incredible the way things work themselves out.

again and again and again.

the days come and go
as dawn falls
the skies sparkle gleamingly

its not day. its night.

let me know that i've done wrong. i'm waiting for the day when you said,"hey you're wrong!"

i was never right. hahs.

but you are.

i figure out what life is all about.

went jamming in town yesterday with cheryl, amelia and melissa. the purpose of the trip was actually to catch the movie "John Tucker Must Die". there wasnt any shows that we were really keen on watchng so we kinda settled on this since the title captures our attention.

so we boarded the train and travelled all the way to bugis. alighted, and there we were, at bugis junction. immediately we saw a japanese ice cream outlet that sells mouth watering ice cream so melissa and i went to grab a green tea flavour ice cream that costs us $4. lols. out goes my money but then i guess it was worth the amount considering the quality of the ice cream. after all people always say, "it is the quality,not quantity tha counts". *nods head*

so while melissa and me were buys enjoying our ice cream, the two "x'tras" stared at our ice cream, not us, in awe. amelia wanted a bite of it but then melissa objected, citing the amount she paid for the ice cream and that the ice cream, on the other hand, was only enough for a few mouthfuls. but still, they managed to get their way and tasted the ice cream.

bought the tickets, and shopped around. spotted julius and called out for him. amelia and melissa were the first two who saw him and started all the callings. upon hearing them, i joined in, though i cant even see a bit of his shadow. lols. kinda funny. the way we shouted and yelled at the top of our lungs.

made the popcorn purchase and all and we finally proceeded into the theatre hall.

no comments for that show.

then we headed to the basement and made some badges of our fave numbers. my badge has the number 26 printed on it. cheryl was 29 and 13. amelia, 19 and melissa, 56. still, my 26 rules.

crossed over the road to bugis street to search for a new bag. i managed to find an orange and brown colour one. the colour combination was not bad. dont wanna elaborate more.

reached home. bathed, and cracked jokes and stuff. following which, i tried to finish up my work but to no avail. there was a question which i'm not sure of. requested for my brother's guidance. as i was too drowsy at that time, all the things he had mentioned totalled couldnt get into me. he told me to rest for the da before waking up tomorrow and continue the work. he said its better to figure out the steps on my own rather than having him to assist me. i agreed with him and went to bed.

the update : i completed the work at 11+ am today. all thanks to what he said.

lets get chilling.

i hate corrupted people who abuse their powers entrusted to them by others. so what if you're a student counsellor but you abuse your rights and all? you're nothing but an asshole. its asshole. spelt as A-S-S-H-O-L-E.

i'm 13, not 3-year-old. get it right. i wouldnt have been so silly and naive to bring my phone and exchange it with yours. even for a day or two. and some more, according to her, her phone is a motorola L7 which is far better than mine. who on earth so stupid would want to exchange your phone with someone whose phone is much "lousier" than yours?

i think yours is a fake l7. is it the toy one? corrupted prefect. if you're playing dirty, let me repeat myself, i wouldnt want to get involved. else i'm gonna make your life so miserable and let me tell you again, i'm gonna play dirtier. i would have your status stripped off and make you look like a stupid fool.

D-U-M-B-A-S-S.

today's forecast : trust your instincts.

you'll never go wrong.

bro told me that today would be his last performance with the SYCO and urged me to go to the esplanade to support him. but sadly...

due to his hectic JC shedule he was bounded with no choice but to forsake his passion.

yesterday he was doing some string-ing for his instrument and i was at that time in the room with him, asking for his guidance in my work. so i kept talking and talking to him so much so that he got distracted and accidentally broke one the the strings. but it posed no chore to him. he just acted furious and said,"look what you have done! stop talking to me. now i'll have to waste one more string."

hahs. his tone wasnt meant to be intimidating in fact if you listened closely you could feel that instant satisfaction or joy in his voice.

i think he had had a hard time deciding whether to leave the SYCO considering the many auditions you need to go through before you make it to the SYCO.

just a few months back he "wasted" some $500+ on some music theory lessons. it was only a few lessons, about 2-3 months. sis said this cant be helped as music is his passion. back to yesterday's scenario.

ok. so right after he ticked me off, i stared at him in awe. musician indeed. so i told him,"the world would be a wonderful place to live in if everyone knows music."

"out of 10 people you picked out from the streets, i guess only 2-3 truly know music."

"less than that," he says.

*clap hands*

wise wise.

how i wish i could be there for his last performance today. he had been looking forward to us going. but to no avail.

i think in the coming years, he wouldnt be in the SYCO anymore, but the SCO...

thats what i called the born-musician. (referring to me)

hahs. JKJK.

no music, no life. ;)

alrights. today was like any other usual day. i did the routine stuffies and kind. but something about today made it real memorable.

anyways, around 120pm, i sauntered into my bedroom which consists of a bunk bed. i used to drift into dreamland on the bottom deck while my brother sleeps above. but for some reason or other, which i am not inclined to state, i got "kicked" out of my own room and was left to sleep in the living room. it has been a year and this practice is still on. and yea, my sis now sleeps on my bed.


so i slept soundly when around 3pm a commotion started and immediately had me woken up. it was between my sister and brother over a trivial matter. just before that sis had headed into my room with intention to take a nap. as she saw me laying on "her" bed, she went for brother's one which is just above.

moments later, brother came in and chased my sis down from his bunk as he too, wants to rest.

so sis got agitated and said in a matter-of-fact tone,"shes sleeping on MY bed!"

the "she" over here refers to me.

i heard that but i pretended to be still engrossed in my sleep.

i was like,"since when has my bed become HERS?"

lols. i havent slept on my bed for a year. and she isnt even giving me a chance to lie on it for ONCE. HAHAHS.

oh well, i'm quite okay with having to sleep in the guestroom. so i guess i dont mind letting my sis have it her way.

then i proceeded to constructing the bridge. goddammit. i have attempted for so many countless times and the construction still failed. forget it.

sis then went on to say that shes going to watch doraemon.

fancy a 20 years old grown up sitting down and eyes glueing intently on the tv, with doraemon being the program. hahas.

till here then. stupid bridge. i feel like demolishing the whole thing!! for now i can only wait for "inspiration" before i get started. hahs.

lets get chilling.

today was the perfect day.

to start it off i woke up to a bright morning.

then in late evening, around 630pm, my sis and i set off to town to do some shopping and hanging out with her friend, sharon. by right there was supposed to be 5 of us. but for some reason or other, the other 2 could not make it.

we headedto New Urban Male. and god. you cant believe all the tops, bags and flip-flops over there. they were goddamn eye-catching! i bought a top which cost $59.90. burnt a hole in my wallet. sis too bought a top of the same price. then shopped some more.

before dinner, we passed by Charles and Keith. the shoe merchandise. both sis and sharon bought a pair of flip-flops or whatever i dont know. cost $26.90 each if i'm not wrong.

at around 8.45pm, our stomachs seemed to be growling so we headed to Far East Plaza. there is a restaurant over there which serves Halal food. hmm like fried mee, fried rice, hor fun and all those local dishes. i settled on a crispy fried mee. and true to its name, it was real crispy. or yummy you call it. it was like any other ordinary fried mee but the only difference is that it tastes kinda raw. like uncooked instant noodles. but you gotta stir the soup in the dish together with the noodles to soften it. it was mouth watering.

sharon ordered a plate of hor fun and sis had fried rice, thai style. we had tofu whatever as a side dish. finished our meal at 9.30pm and headed for home.

there is no other day like today. how i wish it could be like this forever. COOl.

okay. it has been raining endlessly for the past few hours. great. i hope the rain dont die away so soon.

i stood by the window, looking as the rain pelted down. i was immersed in my thinking. hundreds of memories came into my mind. i feel like creating a prose or whatever in regards to rain. i havent had any inspiration. but here goes. just a few lines though.

Gazing across the Streets
Rain sluiced down the glass panels
The floods of emotions
Poured down profusely

i really cant think of anything more to continue. i have been sitting down for 5 minutes but nothing came. maybe i'll continue with it when i have the "feel" again.

my sis intends to take me out shopping at The Heeren tomorrow. what i'm looking forward to most is visiting the New Urban store. yeaps.

i went for a swim today with sis, again. after that we went to satisfy our stomachs. and hey i learnt something new today that i would like to share with you guys.

have you all ever wondered whats the BIG difference between Fats and Calories?

heres a brief description of the two.
Calories : are "fats" accumulated just recently and can be burnt off by taking a slow jog.

Fats : Found in most junk food and is stored in your body over time when you do not work out and burn it off.

so on our way home we were supposed go down the underground MRT station or whatever you call it. i told my sis," hey lets go down by the stairs"

she was a bit reluctant to do so but still she relented and accompanied me down the stairs.

when we were going out of the underground, you are needed to go up. so this time round, again, i told sis to climb up the flight of stairs with me. she wasnt giving in to me. so she took the escalator. lol. of course i took the stairs. she was laughing at me for choosing the stairs instead of the fast, convenient and efficient escalator. lol.

we walked home. lol.

she still has to walk. so what not do so in the first place? conserve energy? energy cant be lost anyway.

lets get chilling.

public holidays are just plain boring. what with being cooped up at home doing the routine usual stuffies. here's my daily schedule. do take a look.

6am : check mail
7am :wash-up
7.30am :breakfast
8am:read newspaper
9am onwards : leisure time

this is the lifestyle of a lifeless one. really. or maybe an introvert's one. i'm currently still planning my day. i dont wanna waste a day doing nothing. time seems to travel on airwaves. lol. i wanna hang out in town. but it feels kinda awkward without having anyone to accompany me there.

i wanted to rent some vcds to while away my time yesterday but then you have to be 16 and above to be eligible. why is there such a stupid rule? the vcd i intended to rent is a PG one and that requires you to be at least 16!! are 13-year-olds not human beings? imagine having to wait for at least 3 more years.

kenneth is off to LA. i asked him to buy me a Statue of Liberty if he happens to come by one. he sms-ed me this morning, at 5am to inform him about his departure. said he will buy some addititonal american assessments. hahs. hope he really gets me the Statue of Liberty!! i love it real much.

lets get chilling.